| sigh ... Lord ... this is so hard...it feels like everything is falling in over my head...and there's just too much to do and my heart feels so heavy...yet i know that You don't test me beyond my limits...but God i'm so scared...i feel so weak...but i pray...let me not stop running...let me set my eyes, my heart, and my everything on You and You only and let You lead me on...be merciful, be graceful Lord...give me strength...give US strength...and most of all, i pray for faith...
in Your powerful name...Amen.
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| retreat was bomb.
praise the Lord.
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hm...2008...what am i doing? i am currently working on an essay that i have been working on for the past 3-4 hours? and yet...i am here...writing this...what a way to start my year haha...this is what i get for procrastinating =T
hmmmmmmm 2007...gone in a blink of an eye...man...it feels like i don't even remember what happened...let's see...i've been able to meet lots of new people and friends...been able to appreciate my family a lot more (still can do a lot better)...school has challenged me and pushed my limits...lots of good memories...
and spiritually? hm i feel like my eyes were opened more and i got to discover more of who i am and where i am in my walk with God...but...yet again...i still haven't been able to put what i've learned into action...i don't feel that much farther in my walk spiritually than i was last year...i find myself struggling with the same things, lifting up the same prayers...please forgive me Jesus...and i thank You for Your mercy, grace, love, and patience...
but i feel like this mobd retreat has helped me a lot...in a sense where i have a better idea of what i should and could be doing and why i am on this earth...i feel like i've discovered reality and kinda met God for the first time in many ways...as if i've been missing out on a lot of things this whole time...i'm not quite sure how to explain it...
2008? hm well i feel like God wants me to be more mature and responsible as a Christian...which means more expectations...i guess i'm kinda scared in some ways, but this is what i wanted if i think about it...something to get me out of my idleness...and this would be my senior year...which means college apps o.o ... but this also means less time to make a difference in high school for God...
as horrible as i have been in keeping up with my resolutions...here are the big things that come to mind (i'm probably forgetting a few):
*living daily/every single day for God (mainly in terms of prayer and Bible reading/qt)
*saving souls
*maturity as a Christian
*2 Cor. 5:7
*and the other little things? i'm praying that they will fall into place when God is at the center and is first in my life
my sort of a "life verse" haha - James 1:22
keep me from just singing...move me into action
thank You Jesus...for everything...
praise God.
peace.
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| all my worries and burdens i give to You...
my only refuge. my only joy.
amazing.
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| wg was awesome. a lot better than i expected...
today is thanksgiving...
man time sure flies by quickly...
there's just so many things i'm thankful for...both the good and the bad...and me being thankful for the bad seems so much more relevant and tangible to me this year...
seriously like for all the huge things and every little thing in my life...thank You Jesus
yet...it's so hard to live each day gratefully hah
i love this time of the year...nov./dec./jan.1
too bad i'm broke =T
love life.
hope.
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| hm what happened since i updated...
homecoming...it was really really fun haha thx to everyone to made it so ;)
hm nothing else that was spectacular comes to mind...
excited for tomorrow lol
on a more serious note...
God, keep me from just singing...please. move me into action. this life is too good to waste...there's just too many things that i could be doing...
and...
WG '07
THIS SATURDAY, NOV. 17
ask me for more info~
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